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(no subject) [Jun. 10th, 2004|08:52 pm]
haven't updated in a while, sorry to whoever actually reads this thing.

last weekend i drove up to visit lucas and keith. i got fired from my job and just needed someone to talk to. haley's great, but sometimes she's so optimistic i can't take it. i know she was trying to make me feel better, but sometimes she needs to be a little more realistic. it was good talking to lucas and keith.

i really really need another job. i only paid like half of my rent last month and i doubt i can pay it this month. haley offers me money but i can't take it from her. if theres one thing ive learned from my dad my entire life its not to borrow money from friends.
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2004|08:40 pm]
interesting weekend.

friday night i had to work until 11, then haley came over and we messed around in the pool until we were forced to get out, because apparantly we were making too much noise.

saturday i hung out with haley all day. at night we decided to have some people over. it was supposed to be kind of low-key, but of course tim brought over a million people and, of course, the neighbors called the cops. but i had an awesome time, and i think haley did too. she's starting to get used to being a part of the "popular" clique.

today i played basketball with some guys down at the river court. it was really weird without lucas there, but it was nice just to mess around with the basketball. lucas's friends are all pretty cool, some of them should think about going out for the team next year.
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2004|08:35 pm]
i need money. i paid late last month and im gonna have to pay late this month too. my mom gives me some money but i usually spend that on food and stuff.

things with haley are great, but we still havent told our parents.

lucas called me the other day. it was pretty weird, us talking on the phone. but its better than us hating each other like we used to.

haley and i are thinking of having a party or something this weekend, comment if youre interested.
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advice needed [May. 17th, 2004|09:07 pm]
i went to see whitey in the hospital after school today. he's having his surgery tomorrow and i wanted to say good luck beforehand. we talked for a while, and he looked kinda distracted the whole time. like his mind was somewhere else, and he wasn't totally focusing on our conversation. but i guess i cant blame him, because id probably be freaked out if i had to get eye surgery the next day too.

i havent told my parents about haley and i yet. i havent talked to my mom in a while, not really. she calls and comes over all the time but i havent had a conversation thats lasted longer than two minutes with her in months. i didnt really know how to bring up the whole haley thing, but i figure she'll pretend like she supports me on it. she knows im kinda hating her right now and she probably doesn't want to do anything that'll get me more angry at her.

as for my dad, i dont know whether im scared of him or just dont give a crap about him anymore. i know he'll go nuts when he finds out, but he hates me enough anyway, i don't know if i should even care what he thinks anymore.

advice needed.

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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2004|11:16 pm]
thought id take a minute to update while haley takes a shower. we were messing around in the pool a little while ago until it started raining, so we came back inside. things with us are still amazing. being married is so great. ive seen my parents marriage falling apart for so many years, to see two people who are married and in love is just amazing. and to think it could be me, thats just unbelievable.

surprisingly, being married hasnt really changed things. i feel the same way about haley as i always did, but now what we have together is permanant. we dont exactly live together, but she stays over here all the time and keeps a lot of her stuff here. haley talked to karen and arranged for a working schedule thats just like mine, so we can be together as much as possible. basketballs over but im still practicing with some of the guys after school whenever anyone has time.

haley and i havent broken the news about being married to our parents yet. if anyone has any idea how we should go about that, please comment.
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(no subject) [May. 14th, 2004|10:21 pm]
somethings going on, i know it. i havent heard from either of my parents for a few days which is wierd. and basketballs over, which is also wierd. thinking about that last game, maybe i shouldnt have passed the ball to lucas. i knew his shoulder hurt and he probably wouldnt have made it. and i could have sunk it easily. im probably just as bad as my dad - he sat on the bench just to show whitey up. and i passed to lucas just to show my dad up.

things with haley are great. i love her so much.
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(no subject) [May. 12th, 2004|08:43 pm]
so much has happened in the last two days.

monday haley and i made up. i was out jogging and it started raining so i ran over to her house and waited for her to come home. and i apologized to her and she finally forgave me.

yesterday was our big playoff game. my dad was coaching and being an ass, but whatever. i played pretty good, i guess. so did lucas. everyone knew he shouldnt have been put back in the game after his shoulder hurt, but all that matters to dan scott is winning. so i passed to lucas at the end of the game, but he missed the three pointer and we lost with a second left. my dad yelled at us in the locker room afterwards, of course, but i think i hit a nerve with what i said to him. and, honestly, i thought he really might take a swing at me. i figured he was joking when he told tim to call security because i had been beaten to death, but i wouldnt put it past him to throw a sucker punch or two at me.

after the game haley and i went out and did what we planned on doing the night before...we got married. it sounds crazy but it just felt right. theres a lot of stuff we have to work out, but schools over in a few weeks and we have the whole summer to figure how we want to spend the rest of our lives.

lucas said his good bye to me yesterday. i felt a lot better after i apologized for how much of a jerk i was to him this year. growing up, i always hated the thought of him being around, so i just kind of hated him by default. but im glad we're okay now - it's cool having a brother. especially when i dont have parents.

no regrets.

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(no subject) [May. 11th, 2004|06:33 pm]
im so tired.

everyday i wake up, go to school, go to practice, go to work, and try to do some homework. i usually dont go to bed until like 2 or 3 in the morning, totalling about 4 hours of sleep a night.

haley is sort of talking to me now. but i really miss her, and what we used to be.

work in 10, ill update later
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(no subject) [May. 8th, 2004|10:29 pm]
this weekend has been boring but thats good, i guess. i have some time to think about things that have been going on.

first off, last night i decided to join tim and his friends in the pool. i figure haleys already mad at me, what have i got to lose? honestly, i dont really remember much of last night. i remember drinking a lot and waking up at like 6 in morning hearing tim snoring on the couch. and then i threw up, a lot.

i felt like shit but i went to practice at 9, only because the play-offs are in a few weeks. i had work right after that and i was there for like 8 hours. my head was pounding and the smell of pretzels started making me nausous, but i didnt want to leave because i need to work a lot of hours to pay my rent.

i came home and tim came back over and we played video games for a while, and he just left to go to some party. i didnt want to go, and i tried calling and apologizing to haley like a million times but she hasnt called me back. and i know this doesnt make much difference, but i deleted all of the porn off of the computer.
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(no subject) [May. 7th, 2004|10:22 pm]
[mood |blahblah]

this night totally sucked. actually, this entire day totally sucked. since haley's not talking to me at the moment, she can't tutor me, so i probably flunked the 20 million tests i had today. after school was practice for 3 hours...we had to run suicides for 45 minutes carrying 10 lb weights in each hand, and everytime you stopped you had to do crunches carrying the weights. and everytime you missed a shot or fouled or anything, you had to spring with the weights. and my dad was even more pissed off today than usual because jakes gone and he was a starter, so now he has to put someone else in for the playoffs. lucas's shoudler seems to be ok though.

i came home and tried to call haley to see if she wanted to hang out but she wouldnt pick up her phone, and then i got called into work for a couple hours. i got home a little while ago and tim stopped by piss drunk off his ass and i think he's in the pool with some chicks now. he said he had to tell me something but i couldnt understand anything he said. he'll probably ending up crashing here like he's been doing every weekend for the past month. he brought up some booze but i havent touched it yet. i remember when i used to have the parties at my parents beach house how drunk i used to get and then puke my ass off the next morning. not sure if im in the mood for that tonight, but we'll see...got nothing better to do with myself

i wish haley would talk to me.
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